she's the rustling leaves
in the springtime breeze that
puts my mind at ease-
the voice that grants me peace,
in knowing that winter is over
and the warmth is to return.
she's the chicken soup
on a chilly morning that
warms my heart-
the smell and flavour wafting
through our home, dreamlike
and permeating all this space.
she's the song playing in my ears,
the quiet lullaby that
brings me comfort at night-
her presence; music to my ears;
the sound of her walking by my side
put my fears to rest.
she's my favourite book
that never gets old, the one that
i never tire of reading-
the one where the words change meaning
as i age, the one that gr
you are like that cloud in the horizon
that i saw form from nothing more than blue sky and daylight.
it was magic to me; how the air whisked itself into life,
its wispy strands coming together knitted tightly
and fitting nicely into this picture of you.
like snowflakes falling from the sky
you are one in a million, one of billions
of perfectly structured and arranged
designer pieces of nature fashioned this season;
you are like no other and that is why
i can't take my eyes off you.
you give life to my world
like a thawing river; flowing, running,
ice breaking smaller and softer
until it becomes a warmer, smoother,
streaming rivulet of ever
i am adrift; an astronaut
cut loose from his bindings,
searching for that lost attraction
that once kept my feet on the ground.
i am weightless; inactive and unreactive
to the emptiness that surrounds me,
morbidly ineffective against this stifling
sense of nothing filling my skin.
i am hungry; a rabid beast
in an empty cage,
howling to the blank canvas of space
for a slice or sliver of something yours-
because it is your gravity
that kept me bound to the world;
you are Spica to my Virgo,
and i long to fall to you again.
it takes just a whisper;
the shape of moving lips,
the smell of your words
and the sibilance of your longing
to bring me back to life.
i will collect your tears
and return each one to you
like a lost child coming home again;
but we will say nothing when we reunite,
only knowing of lifetimes past
and futures wanting.
it will only take a whisper
to bring me near like an autumn wind;
the one which takes your love away
and sends him back as a memory
of a warm body in an empty bed.
he writes me
as if each letter was the last
in recorded history.
like literature would deign
to disappear without so much
as a wave of goodbye-
and i hang off his every word;
catlike concentration pawing
the loose threads of his conversation.
he doesn't speak in rhyme
(nor reason sometimes),
but his words speak to me
louder than a shot of epinephrine
and excites me just as well;
like it fills my arteries with
a longing to share your heartbeat
and breathe your air-
but then it's gone.
like a warm bathroom vapour
dispersing out through the open door;
the comfort fades and all that's left
is the cold condensate
dripping
she's the rustling leaves
in the springtime breeze that
puts my mind at ease-
the voice that grants me peace,
in knowing that winter is over
and the warmth is to return.
she's the chicken soup
on a chilly morning that
warms my heart-
the smell and flavour wafting
through our home, dreamlike
and permeating all this space.
she's the song playing in my ears,
the quiet lullaby that
brings me comfort at night-
her presence; music to my ears;
the sound of her walking by my side
put my fears to rest.
she's my favourite book
that never gets old, the one that
i never tire of reading-
the one where the words change meaning
as i age, the one that gr
you are like that cloud in the horizon
that i saw form from nothing more than blue sky and daylight.
it was magic to me; how the air whisked itself into life,
its wispy strands coming together knitted tightly
and fitting nicely into this picture of you.
like snowflakes falling from the sky
you are one in a million, one of billions
of perfectly structured and arranged
designer pieces of nature fashioned this season;
you are like no other and that is why
i can't take my eyes off you.
you give life to my world
like a thawing river; flowing, running,
ice breaking smaller and softer
until it becomes a warmer, smoother,
streaming rivulet of ever
i am adrift; an astronaut
cut loose from his bindings,
searching for that lost attraction
that once kept my feet on the ground.
i am weightless; inactive and unreactive
to the emptiness that surrounds me,
morbidly ineffective against this stifling
sense of nothing filling my skin.
i am hungry; a rabid beast
in an empty cage,
howling to the blank canvas of space
for a slice or sliver of something yours-
because it is your gravity
that kept me bound to the world;
you are Spica to my Virgo,
and i long to fall to you again.
it takes just a whisper;
the shape of moving lips,
the smell of your words
and the sibilance of your longing
to bring me back to life.
i will collect your tears
and return each one to you
like a lost child coming home again;
but we will say nothing when we reunite,
only knowing of lifetimes past
and futures wanting.
it will only take a whisper
to bring me near like an autumn wind;
the one which takes your love away
and sends him back as a memory
of a warm body in an empty bed.
he writes me
as if each letter was the last
in recorded history.
like literature would deign
to disappear without so much
as a wave of goodbye-
and i hang off his every word;
catlike concentration pawing
the loose threads of his conversation.
he doesn't speak in rhyme
(nor reason sometimes),
but his words speak to me
louder than a shot of epinephrine
and excites me just as well;
like it fills my arteries with
a longing to share your heartbeat
and breathe your air-
but then it's gone.
like a warm bathroom vapour
dispersing out through the open door;
the comfort fades and all that's left
is the cold condensate
dripping
even then(exhausted by shame) by hsupernormal, literature
Literature
even then(exhausted by shame)
even then
(exhausted by shame)
i felt the pull
(the undeniable grasp)
of my other self
following the rain through
narrow prison windows
to fill the ravine of my mind
with the color of your skin
whose freckles
lead my blood to my hands
(lead your name to my lips)
to write(say)
"if i am a criminal
(as all who live are)
remove my reflection
stain my skin grey as time
do all within the reach of justice
(lifeless words carved on stone)
to tear away my tongue
and murder my protestations
on the concrete floor
i still bleed red"
and behind the exhaustion of my eyes
midnight bird, help me
bury these heavy years
in the careless loam of dawn
and help me coax redder fruit
from life's bittersweet soil
and later,
alone amidst our crimson harvest,
reveal to me the secret color of my heart
as i tear out my screaming mind
and smother it with your feathers
(yesterday
i was twenty-seven,
now i must be whole)
I did not turn to watch the storm
instead I placed pennies on my eyes
and heard flowers fight against the wind.
In regret I blacken, scorched like meat
and milk spewed on the street for midday sun.
I turn from blessed rings to float in
and out of almost forgotten sleep.
Its relief, like tulip tips, green
and piercing the snow, like sneakers
hanging from power lines, like my father
's voice, low.
No phone number
Instead, a ring of water (still)
drying on the coffee table
(an unclosed bracket left you
feeling uneasy
so did foreign language,
not a name attached to a face,
but of three-and-twenty odd dollars
over two cups of coffee
/
she strides like a sea walker,
each step rippling outwards
in search of a kindred being.
this echolocation finds nothing-
angry waves crash her delicate signals
now as confused as her footsteps
balanced upon the water's skin.
she falters and begins to sink-
a dangerous game to play Jesus
and not know how to swim.
soft hands slap against the cold hard surface
as she flounders for a grasp on reality.
her belief keeps her afloat
for now.
the water stings her face,
evidence of struggle and suffering.
her figure frames a distorted self portrait
as she crawls back to her feet-
on the other side of sane.
I've managed to write only 3 poems in the past year.
Inspiration is drying up a bit. Maybe I need to go out and live something.
As life passes by it gets harder and harder to see from new perspectives unless you are willing to change yourself. That's what I believe.
Once you leave something it is hard to get back into a habit of doing it again. My holiday to NZ has been really good for me, gave me time off to think and get away from work. Felt so recharged when I came back! But I've also dropped things I had been doing for various reasons. Short stories are on hold until I have less commitments.
I've been playing Guild Wars 2 lately, rolling on IoJ if anybody is interested :). This is one thing which is new and I have been devoting time to. First proper MMO I've played since RO and probably the more immersive ones I have played ever. Dangerous territory here but we'll see how it pans out :D
I've also r